Sometimes, I wish I could restart my anime journey

Before you ask, no. I never regretted starting my anime journey. If anything, anime has become a huge part of my life and I never intend to let go of it. I mean, I wouldn’t start this blog if that wasn’t the case. Ever since I first saw an episode or two of this particular and unique art form in my elementary school days, I knew I was hooked. Its apart of what defines me now. If anything, this post is a somewhat older and experienced fan looking back on where they are now and wishing for a time period that their mind wasn’t molded in what it is now. I am incredibly jaded by what I’ve seen and sometimes I wish this wasn’t the case. With this disclaimer out of the way, now onto the show!

Do you guys ever wish you could restart how you dove into anime the first time or just restart watching anime in general? I know I do at times Every once in a while, I get completely jealous when I see someone join the fandom for the first time. Everything that they are going to watch is going to new and interesting for them and are only going to be the building blocks for what they want out of this unique art form. I do realize that some of these people might be confused or shocked by what they see and never return to it, but happens with any fandom. There is a small weeding out process that occurs to get the people who want to stick around hooked and others out of it. Still, even with this threat in mind, I wish I could start watching anime with a clean slate again. No biases or opinions to hold me back from watching one show after another. I would able to watch and enjoy in its purests form. As much as I try to do that now, I am still held back from what I’ve seen and what I’m willing to try to shake my opinion up. The mold is set, and in some forms of manufacturing, it is almost possible to change after its set (unless we are talking thermoplastics but that doesn’t help my point here). Having a mind that can watch everything is much easier with a clean slate.

On a smaller level and approachable level, I wish I could rewatch some shows for the first time. Seeing some people watching shows like Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood and Hunter x Hunter for the first time makes me feel jealous.  Those people are having the same kind of reactions and emotions to certain scenes that I used to have when watching them. I’m jealous that I can’t go on this journey with them. If you can tell, I’m not the kind of person that forgets what they watch after a while and then can go into the show again like its new. No, I remember main plot details, characters, and action scenes from shows like these for a long time. Especially when they leave a strong impact on me. My long term memory is both a blessing and a curse. I haven’t watched Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood since I first watched it about five years ago, but I still remember almost every single detail about it because it’s such a great show with a lot of power behind it. When I eventually watch it again, I will be looking for details that I missed instead of diving head first into the unknown the same way I did the first time. In some ways this could be considered a good thing, because I can look into the show more deeply than before, catch some connections and plot threads that I didn’t see the first time, or many other things. Still, the impact FMA:B had on me is strong and will be in my mind forever. Somebody please take my memory of the show away so that I can watch it again for the first time. It’s so unfair.

If there was anything that I learned from watching a lot of science fiction, it’s that changing the time line can result in disaster. Who knows how changing what kinds of anime I watched and how I watched them in the past can change the world. Maybe giant monsters will appear from underground and start wiping out humanity or an alien invasion will occur for the same reason. It also might be possible that Nazis won World War 2, even though I’m changing something from the 90’s. That’s just how time travel works.  In all seriousness though, if how I started my anime experience was ever rebooted, who knows how it would actually turn out.  There is no set way that it would happen with the worse result being that I would never get into anime beyond the first episode of what I saw on toonami years ago.  I guess in the end, the manner of how much of a big fan I’ve become is a million in one chance that somehow worked out in my favor, according to the me of this specific timeline.

In the end, I think I talked myself out of ever wanting to restart anything that I’ve done. I’m always going to be a little bit jealous of those who start anime with a fresh point of view and people who watch different series that I loved for the first time. That is just life I suppose. New people are going to join the fandom all the time and all I can do is help these new fans out and lead them into some sort of direction that can help them out. I know this blog isn’t going to get hits from every single new fan, a small fraction of them maybe, but I can hope those who randomly click on this blog. Thank you for reading through how my mind works. I hope I didn’t bore you guys with this post. Do any other experienced anime fans have thoughts like this? Please let me know in the comments below.

17 thoughts on “Sometimes, I wish I could restart my anime journey

  1. I love rewatching an anime I’ve enjoyed with someone who has never seen it. Sitting with them and watching their reaction as well as the show and talking about each episode as it is done is so much fun. I don’t think I’d ever want to restart because I think how I view any kind of story is based on all the stories I’ve seen before and restarting would take a lot of that experience and thoughts away. While it might give me a bit more of a sense of wonder toward shows andI might get thrown by plot twists more often, I think I prefer where I am on my anime journey. Still, if I could watch D Gray Man again from the beginning without knowing where it is going (and that it doesn’t actually finish), that would probably be an awesome experience because I remember more how that show made me feel the first time than details of the show itself.

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    1. I enjoy watching series that I’ve seen with people who haven’t seen them as well, but I haven’t had that chance in over a year or too.

      I think we all have that series that we would want to watch fresh like it was the first time again.

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  2. Whenever I tell my newer-to-anime friends about some of the older shows I enjoyed. They always seem to come back the next day, slightly angry that my “recommendation” was “total crap”. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I never said Sonic X was actually *good*. There are some anime that I really just can’t bring myself to rewatch, purely because I thought they were really good at the time but I now realise…might not be so great and I don’t want to ruin my original experience.

    On the flip-side, there are some f anime like Ouran, Psycho-Pass and Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children that I rewatch like it’s an annual tradition. It’s kind of a random selection but it just kind of happens, I guess.

    If I could restart, the things I would change would be more to do with my interactions with my junior school classmates than anything else…

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    1. Oh, I have plenty of shows that I would rather not watch again. Dragon Ball Z being one of them, because I am watching on Toonami as it airs and I’m like “this isn’t nearly as good as when I was 10”.

      I used to rewatch Gundam Wing every summer, but I eventually got bored and annoyed with it because I finally started noticing that it wasn’t good.

      I agree with on interactions with former school mates. I was a band person so I always had those people to hang out with, but I am not sure if I ever made any true friends in primary school. University worked out so much better.

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  3. As a jaded fan like you, restarting is risky. Because if you ever do get to restart, I will make it my damnest to make sure you watch Boku no Pico with your innocent mind. Do yuo want that risk? I don’t. XD
    In all seriousness, I love all the good and bad shows I’ve seen. I don’t think I’ll ever regret it, and I’m also not really into fandoms since I take more pride in introducing people to aniem they won’t likely watch. 🙂

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    1. If that was the case, definitely not worth the risk. You are evil my friend, and I appreciate that.

      Yeah, not too deep into fandom stuff either. Blogging is far as it goes for me.

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  4. I agree with everything you said here. If you asked what other anime I’ve watched. I’d tell you that’s it’s all a blur now unfortunately. Sometimes I do wish I could restart my anime journey there are some anime I would like to forget I ever watched like Pita Ten and Mew Mew Power.

    Awful, awful shows. If I could go back in time, I would slap myself a lot just because I liked those shows back then XD.


  5. When it comes to certain shows, I definitely do.

    I’d kill to be able to watch Hunter x Hunter again for the first time because that experience was just so incredible and unlike any other I’ve had with regards to the consumption of fiction.

    However, I’m happy with my overall “journey” since it shaped both my current tastes and who I am as a person, both the good and the bad, even if my taste has changed significantly over the years (I used to think Elfen Lied was a 10/10, hoo boy!)

    Great post and really interesting subject!

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    1. Yeah, going through Hunter x Hunter was one of a few special experiences I’ve had when watching anime. It’s definitely one of a short list that I wish ask a genie for me to watch for the first time again.

      Oh god, I remember the days I thought Elfen Lied was a 10/10. I was such a fool…

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  6. The idea of going back to the beginning of watching anime is a very tempting offer. The things one can experience again, the joys, the sadness, the moments that will stick with you forever all are new and fresh. Something that nostalgia can never truly bring back in its entirety. That moment when you watch your first Ghibli film…that can give one chills. Even seeing the episodic tales of the Bebop crew would certainly be a treat and relive that sensation when you see the many “See you later Space cowboy” at the end of each episode. Though I agree with you that I don’t regret having watched what i have watched. From the wonderful world of Hunter x Hunter’s multiple genres to just the insanity that is even Mars of Destruction, its just a experience I don’t know I can have again and in the same way. This question though will always be at the back of one’s mind when you come across that one show that makes you question everything and want to restart though (Hand Shakers). Really fun post and topic to ponder about all the experiences one could revisit.

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    1. Yeah, I don’t know if we would ever think about shows the same way when watching them for the first time part 2. Always dangerous, but we wouldn’t remember it would we?

      And Handshakers….ick.

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  7. I’d love to be able to rewatch an anime which can give me the same experience as when I first watched the show and didn’t know much about the plot or any of the character development. The feelings of how you process the story can never really be felt again during the second time around like they were felt during the very first instance you came across a particular show or series. However, rewatching old anime does give a great sense of nostalgia which can be both good and bad as not only can it make a show memorable, it can also place it in a positive light where it might not be as good, in terms of quality to the audience of newcomers in this day and age.

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  8. I have a terrible memory, which can sometimes be a blessing. If I rewatch something I haven’t seen in years it’s almost like watching it for the first time haha.

    I can see what you mean though about restarting. After a while you start to see patterns that ruin the enjoyment. A new anime fan will say “I just saw this hilarious show about a guy being chased by tons of girls.” A veteran viewer will just think “bah another harem show.”

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  9. I recently started watching Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood with my wife. She was dismissive at first but after a few episodes she was asking questions and seemed actively engaged. I see so many of my initial reactions to anime in her as she watches. In a way, it is sort of like starting over.

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